July 30, 2009

The One with the Changes

Today, as opposed to my Tuesday night's sleep, was wonderful.
I was actually cold most of the night in bed last night.
Not a positive thing for most people but it meant lots of cuddling which is my fav.
I woke around 7:30am to find the day shining beautifully.
After lounging in my robe with the Today Show and a bowl of my favorite oatmeal, I headed out for a run.
I decided to switch things up this morning, though.
Crazy! I know.
I ended up running down to the corner where the library sits and then walking back. Totaling just over an hour.
And yes, I'm pretty sure I walk almost as fast as I run.
Not sure how I feel about that.

After some housecleaning and showering, I sat in the sun on our back porch reading Captivating.
Thankfully the smell of the rotting bird carcass had dispersed as I took care of that with a handy shoebox yesterday.
Not pleasant at all.
Tears almost ensued.

Back to the book and the sun.
What a fantastic place God has me in at this moment in my life.
A place of refining. painful but purifying.
I have finally come to a point where I am desiring more than ever to give up control.
Every day is a deeper yearning for the freedom and healing only He can offer.
It is no longer an obligatory sacrifice out of a fleshly desire to please.
I can't do it anymore.
I have tried to call the shots and it just doesn't work. ever.
He has whispered my name over and over and over and over again.
I turn around to let him know I hear, but then turn back to continue on my own way.
Never in my life have I wanted anything more than right now.
"Take all of me, Lord. I want to dedicate each day to you. Every act, every word, every thought--make them yours."

I could go on and on, but at this moment I will refrain.
This may be woven throughout future posts if I am so led.
But for now, back to the wonderful day.

Kevin arrived home early in the afternoon--around 3:30.
I shared much of my Captivating experience and revelations with him and then we headed for the store.
He had complete control of The List.
This was hard for me.
I like to be in control.
But I've mentioned that already.
I managed to let him be fully engaged in the shopping date (that is, "thinking through and executing the shopping list") while enjoying my time out with him (that is, "trusting him not to skip things and being thankful for the mundane activity that was giving us time together.")

We got home just in time to prepare some amazing turkey burgers.
I'm still not sure how Kevin fit his the height of his double decker into his mouth.
Then we ran off to worship team practice.
The only "not so fantastic" part of the day.
An evening of relaxing over FRIENDS and ice cream and Jeopardy and conversation has been just right.

And how could I forget the reason I started this post in the first place.
The Girls are coming tomorrow!!!!
We haven't all been together for an extended period of time in way too long.
Possibly since May 2008.
Emily, Betsy, Angie, Magan, Tabetha, Melissa, Britt, Jennie and me. (poor Karina has to work!)
All night.
Girls only.
At my house.
What a blast!

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